Can we say DUH???? 3/24/2011

OMG!!! I hate when you get proven right... about boundless stupidity. So I went to court today, I sent in the Affidavit of Prejudice the other day & they were going to deal with it today, the problem I have been trying to work out in my head is that I don't want my attorney, but she has to file motions for me if she is representing me. So how to file the Affidavit & her dismissal because I can't file the Affidavit if the Judge has ruled on my case, so I cant ask him to dismiss her & do the Aff. ACK!!! We get to court, he gives (grants) me my motion, then the dipstick attorney says well we are filing a motion to withdraw, he said well I can't rule on that, she says we are filing a motion to withdraw & he has to EXPLAIN to her why she has to wait til the 30th. So basically she was trying to get him to rule so I couldn't change judges. DUH, see what I mean about her? I am still left to wonder if she did that to be malicious or if she was just so dumb she didn't realize WHY the judge couldn't rule on it. I was advised to change Judges, not my idea, but her definitely I wanted her gone as far away from me as she could get. The prosecutor wouldn't even look at me, he just stared straight ahead, but soon he will have to look at me every day for weeks to come. So far I have totally finished 9 motions & am almost done with my tort claim, plus 2 more motions. I have to get the Superior court minutes next week & then I can file a complaint against that commissioner as well. I do have to say in Judge Odell's favor, he seemed to get a big kick out of our experience today, I actually seen a SMILE out of him, unfortunately it makes me ponder the decision, seems to me he is a bit crabby but at least he knows what the hell is going on... On that note I might as well been hit with a ton o bricks: The new Judge's last name is Mitchell, my Mitchell family can be some of the meanest cusses you've ever met so hopefully he is no way shape or form related to me or them YIKES! Anyway the 30th is the attorney wiithdraws, I present a notice of Pro Se, I present the Motion to dismiss, expunge & return my animals, if they don't then next day I present the Motions to suppress the photos, the AC reports, & the complaint from the crazy woman, then the motion for return of the dogs, then the motion to remove the prosecutor since he heard my WHOLE case at Superior court, & if that doesn't work the motion for change of Venue plus about 6 other motions. Wait til they see my witness list & I am positive they will say I can't have that many witnesses because of time constraints but they have attacked my character so I have every right to call as many witnesses. It is up to them to prove beyond a doubt I am guilty, it is up to me to defend myself & my reputation. I also need to make sure that any little scrap or shred of evidence or testimony is included so if I have to appeal this I will have a basis for appeal. I will not be happy about jury selection but have a list of questions drawn up already, that will be quite an adventure. I also have the motion for Discovery, for the Public Records Disclosure, & petition to return them, inspect them  & visit the dogs & cat. Just to note it has been 77 days & 13 hours since they took my babies & I swear to God something inside of me just snapped the other day, I didn't think I could live without them for 1 day let alone 75, they have hurt them & I beyond any limitations, at this point I am almost resigned to the fact that the a-holes are going to keep my dogs & cat for as long as they can, but again now I have nothing to do but fight them, I can't even explain what is going on in my heart, I just know that being nice & following the rules is not going to get them back, this is like someone dangling your children over a cliff... I have finally snapped, I have been suicidal, depressed beyond all belief, I can't sleep without having nightmares, the other night I dreamed that they were drowning them one at a time & I could hear them screaming for me & I kept running towards them but they were just getting further away & the AC officer & the prosecutor were just laughing & they weren't just drowning them they were taking them & holding them under for a while & reviving them & then drowning them again to make it last as long as they could. My daughter said I have aged at least 15 yrs in just the past 3 months & even my hair is going white, my blood pressure is going insane & most days my left side is numb. I am going to go get a check up & probably start seeing a counselor for a while. I can't let the depression over take me, I have to be able to fight for them. Even if I die with the Tort Claim at least my family & kids can continue the whole process & get the animals back. I don't care if I am dead or not but I want that woman's job, & I want it gone from her so she can't hurt anymore innocent people or animals based on the color of their skin or lack of body fat. Who even thinks like that anymore??? I still can't believe someone would KILL your animals because you are Native or Slim... What is it in her that is lacking so badly that she feels the need to abuse animals cause she can't keep her mouth off of food? It is simple, watch your diet exercise & she is absolutely free to go to a tanning salon if it is jealousy, I am not a psychiatrist but seeing how mean, hateful & ugly she is about NOTHING lets me know I'm really not that bad off. I wonder about people like that though, is every moment of their life, every TV commercial, every magazine, every trip to the store is filled with anger, misery or envy, do they even notice the beauty that God has created, the flowers, the trees, the mountains, the puffy clouds, the sound of a child's laughter or is it that they are so angry & so lacking that they can't see past it to the good parts of life. Is every day filled with thoughts of anger, & envy? What is it that won't let them see past themselves? I realize full well I have a problem with the depression & in order to be healthy & not feel like this most of the day I have to get help, why can't they see that for themselves? If it wasn't my animals she hurt I would almost pity her for being her :~(